Dear Diary #1 – Going back to university

Dear Diary is going to be the most personal series on my blog. Writing a diary has always been very important to me, so I wanted to share a version of it with you. I really want my blog to be 100% real so I feel like it’s important that I share the things that I care about and show you what my life really is. So this series is going to be really casual, I’m going to pretend that I’m just writing my diary, and I hope that you will all like it.

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01.10.2016

Dear Diary,

I was planning my first post in this series to be a really nice and cheesy one about my adventures in the summer, how much fun I had and how amazing it is to go back to uni. But the truth is I don’t really feel that way anymore.

Yes, I did have an amazing summer – I went to visit one of my best friends in Croatia, who lives literally 2 minutes away from the beach, then I was lucky enough to introduce her to my home country. In September I had the opportunity to go to France for two weeks, and then I spent two more weeks at home in Hungary with my family and my friends. I consider myself really lucky and am grateful for everything that happened even though the summer was not only about sunshine and having fun. Whenever you are supposed to have the best time of your life something can always go wrong, anxiety can come into the picture or the people you love can disappoint you. This is just how life works and we all need to accept that.

I choose to remember only the positive parts of my journey and so I let go of the parts of the summer that I didn’t really enjoy. I made mistakes and I learned from them, I grew as a person, and now it’s time to move on. I am back in my home away from home – in England, and I wanted to tell you how I feel about it.

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During the travel and moving process I was feeling quite nervous for two reasons. Firstly, as an international student it is so difficult and stressful for me to move to university – who knows when my suitcases or boxes will disappear, or when my plane will be late and I miss my bus or I lose my wallet or my passport or ANYTHING. The second reason is that this time I didn’t actually want to leave Hungary. I had such a nice time at home, just chilling and watching TV shows with my little family. People have told me that it gets more and more difficult to leave home every year, but I never understood why. Now I realised that as time goes by, your visits at home will always get shorter because of work, and you will never spend as much time with your family as you used to, and you will never live at home again.

Last year it was completely different. It was sooo exciting not knowing the place where I would live for the next couple of years, and I didn’t fully process the thought that I would be completely alone in a foreign country. There was no point thinking about it – I knew that I just had to do it. When I arrived in England it was magical to explore a new town and get to know new people completely on my own. Don’t get me wrong, I was stressed out a lot, but it all happened so quickly that I didn’t have time to worry. Well, this year the magic has disappeared and all that was left for me was stress.

Fortunately everything went well on my way to England, I moved into my new room and it all seemed perfect. But it takes time for stress to go away, especially if you are at the beginning of an even more stressful period of time – like the second year of university, in my case.

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I want to concentrate on the positive side of things and appreciate what I have. So even if it has been a very stressful couple of days for me, I am still very happy to be back in England. I will never forget that coming here was a dream of mine that I managed to accomplish. To this day, whenever I start thinking about how lucky I am to be here I get butterflies in my stomach and start smiling by myself like an idiot. I am also very motivated to study what I am interested in, and basically just to make the most out of my time here. My ambition is what allowed me to come here and I know that it will also help me succeed in everything that I want to achieve in my life.

So I am looking forward to starting university and work next week; I am feeling so motivated and grateful to be in this position. Let’s work hard, let’s be positive, let’s do this!

So this was my first Dear Diary post, pure honesty and the real me. Not everything is perfect, but you always have to find some positivity and concentrate on that. I hope you have enjoyed a bit of insight into my life, and I hope you will like my Dear Diary posts in the future as well.

Xx

P.

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5 reasons to get excited for back to school!

It’s that time of the year again. The one when everywhere you go and everywhere you look online, you see the most annoying three words: BACK TO SCHOOL.

I know. It’s the most terrifying thing for all students, whether you go to high school or university. Doing all that homework, dealing with all that responsibility, being overwhelmed with all the deadlines and exams… it’s coming closer and closer. And on top of that, you are reminded of this every single day. Now, instead of getting annoyed in supermarkets because they are full of cheap stationery and getting fed up with all the back to school videos on YouTube, I decided to try to find my own positive side of this and only concentrate on that part. I always say that there is already too much negativity in the world, so whenever you have the possibility, do share your positive thoughts! So that’s exactly what I am going to do today.

I collected my top 5 favourite things about going back to school, and I want to make all of you as excited as I am for these things. Without further ado, let’s get started!

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1. New stationery

I don’t know about you, but my favourite thing about going back to school is the new stationery. The first shops I head to when I get back to England will definitely be Paperchase and WH Smith. Cute little notebooks and colourful pens always make me excited to start studying, and let’s be honest: you are more likely to start studying if you have nice and new stationery that you absolutely love. Freshen up your desk area every year and make it look exactly how you want it. You can put motivational quotes on the wall or organise your pen collection into cute little mugs. Get creative! If you can’t really afford a huge Paperchase shopping spree then come up with your own DIY notebooks! There are lots of amazing ideas on YouTube and blogs where you can get inspired.

2. Being organized

Probably most of us tend to throw away our normal weekday schedules during the summer. Why would you go to bed early, if you don’t have to wake up before 10 in the morning? And before you realise, your new schedule includes staying up until 3am and having lunch instead of breakfast. Also, if you don’t go anywhere during the day, why would you only get dressed to go to the gym? For me, back to school means getting organized with my daily routine again. Having a timetable that you need to adjust to means that you need to fit all of your activities into a set amount of time, which makes you procrastinate less and concentrate more on your work. Even though my second year at university is going to be really challenging, I can’t wait to organise my daily schedules, write to-do lists and just get things done in general. I am going to work this year as well, which means I have to start all of my assignments on time, instead of spending 2-3 full days working on them before the deadline.

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3. Socialising

To be fair, this is not my favourite one. But I tend to kind of hide during the summer, and not see anyone except my family for weeks. And even if I’m a shy and quiet person, I miss seeing my university friends, and just being surrounded by people in general. Going back to uni is also a great opportunity to start with a fresh page and make new friends. Because I study English as a foreign language, my class usually only consists of international students from all over the world, which is a very exciting opportunity to get to know different people. There are also many events at the university where you can get to know new people. Go to new societies, or join the gym! I have the feeling that we should all take advantage of the many amazing opportunities that universities have to offer.

4. New dorm room

I am probably the most excited for my new and empty dorm room, which is basically like a fresh canvas for me that I can fill in and make pretty. I love decorating my room, I think I am definitely more likely to enjoy university if I have my own little comfy space. This year I really want to make it feel warm and cosy with fairy lights, photos on the wall and nice colourful bed sheets. I also want to organise my makeup collection better. I basically gave this mission to myself to make my room the best one I’ve ever had! I am already planning every single detail and looking at stuff on Amazon for my room. If you love decorating your room like me, definitely do spend some time before arriving just planning everything and buying some things in advance. Also watch a lot of “dorm room tour” videos on YouTube, because they really make you inspired and give you some amazing ideas that you might not come up with by yourself. Having your own space that looks exactly how you like it will make you feel at home during term time.

(I am working on a “dorm room decoration ideas” video, so if you’re interested then subscribe to my channel on YouTube!)

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5. Starting with a fresh page

Whether we’re talking about friendships, new rooms or university work, the start of a new year always means a fresh page. Think about your last year: what did you like about it and what did you not like about it? If there was anything you didn’t enjoy, then change it this year! If you feel like you don’t have enough friends, then go out more! If you were not satisfied with your grades at school, then make a resolution to work harder this year! Whatever it is that you didn’t love about your last year, I’m sure there is a way to change it. Remember to always do what makes you happy, live in the way you want to and don’t be afraid to change. I know it can be difficult sometimes, but always try to find the positive side of things. Do your best to make yourself happy this year! J

What about you? What makes you the most excited about going back to school? How are you going to decorate your dorm room? Please let me know in the comments, I would love to read your answers!

Thank you for reading my blog post, and I will talk to you next time!

Xx

P.